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[08 Apr 2005|10:02am] |
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So today has been very eventfull already <3
Kristen came to the house this morning and we got ready for school.
I hate the way she drives and she freaks me out so she makes me drive when we go anywhere cuz I get anxiety way to much. We picked up her boyfriend and took a ride then we dropped him and my sister off at the school. Then I brought her to school and then went to the gas station. She was supposed to stay in school and I was going to just pick her up after I got out of school but she caled me while I was still at the gas station. She wanted me to come back adn get her, so I did. We drove around forever. We went to concord NH, Canibee Lake Park <3 love that place, Maine and other places. We met up with her friend Beau who by the way is gorgeous and wants my little sister hahaha .. cute!
So then her mom called.... goddamnit, we were having such an awesome time! Her mom was on her way to the school so we had to get her ass back there before her mom got there and we were tirty to fourty mins away. I was going a buck ten on the high way and we get around this corner and theres a fucking COP sitting right there.. uhm yeah what a fucking retard, he didnt even pull us over, and i didnt slow down.
So we make it back to NBPT in ten mins. Her mom stopped for gas so we actually made it back before her mom did!
Yesterday I ran over a small child with Kristens car, funniest thing ive ever seen in my life!
Well, now im gonna go up to the school, its only 10 so Im not too late
Tonight im stayin at Kristens house and we're goin out with everyone to the mall and movies
Neil broke up with that bitch and now he wants me back.... hahaha is he serious?
<3 <3 <3 TWELVE MORE DAYS MY LOVE!!! I CANT WAIT TO SEE YOU!!!! <3 <3 <3
Peace OUT!
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Lloyd's moving back with his mom :o(
I love his mom to death but I'd rather he stay here with me <3
I hope that the memories we shared together will never be forgotten
This past summer with Kelsey was the best time of my life.
We had nothing to worry about. Stress free. (for the most part)
Going to Dunkins every day for our favorite, Vanilla Bean Coolatta .. mmmm
Going to the mall even tho we were as rich as a homeless family
Taking trips late at night to the beach, just for a walk.
pictures of us, 3 days of not showering.. hott!
All of us crying over ::him::
going out for a ride to take our minds off of things
ughhh the list goes on and on...
I never want to forget about us 3 being together.
Without those two in my life I dont know where I would be right now.
I love you Kelsey Wilson Harrington
and Lloyd you know you'll always be my first true love, I love you sweetie <3
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uhm so yeah, i havent been to a full day of school since last wednesday.
Last thursday i didnt go cuz i stayed home with Neil, friday we had off, monday i was sick, tuesday sick too, wednesday i went for a while, thursday = hospital and today the doc made me stay home.
It was nice to see Kelsey today.
She picked me up and we went and cleaned her car, visited her adorable sister in-law and neice, and then we searched hi and low for a damn dunkins with coolattas, finally found one, thank God. I <3 Kels
I still dont feel too good. Im staying home tonight so hopefully I'll be healthy for work tomorrow.
which by the way im working from 3-9 so come see me!
Chrystal quit today which makes me the only employee, so if any of you want an easy job let me know and ill get you one.
Okay well my mom just left and im tired so im either gonna go to sleep or im gonna go out.
p.s. 19 more days til florida!! <3
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[29 Mar 2005|12:53pm] |
There's a pain that sleeps inside
It sleeps with just one eye
And awakens the moment that you leave
Though I try to look away
The pain it still remains
Only leaving when you're next to me
Do you know, that everytime you're near
Everybody else seems far away
So can you come and make them disappear
Make them disappear and we can stay
So I stand and look around
Distracted by the sounds
Of everyone and everything I see
And I search through every face
Without a single trace, of the person
The person that I need
Do you know, that everytime you're near
Everybody else seems far away
So can you come and make them disappear
Make them disappear and we can stay
Can you make them disappear?
Make them disappear
There's a pain that sleeps inside
Sleeps with just one eye
And awakens, the moment that you leave
And I search through every face
Without a single trace, of the person
The person that I need
Do you know, that everytime you're near
Everybody else seems far away
So can you come and make them disappear
Make them disappear and we can stay
Thats me and Neils song.. He sings it to me all the time.. Hes so fucking cute!! <3
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[28 Mar 2005|05:57pm] |
Well saturday night, I had an allergic reaction to something and my throat closed and I had to be rushed to the hospital. I was there forever.. it sucked.
They put me on 3 different kinds of meds... they suck.
Easter was amazing!!
I was invited to Easter dinner by Neils mom, I met the family... they were all so sweet and they told Neil that they love me and that they're all so happy for him. We walked to the center and had a bunch of pictures taken at the arcades. They came out pretty cute, well a couple of them did, a few sucked cuz my eyes were closed haha. I love him so much. Hes the nicest, sweetest person ive ever met and he makes me sooo happy! Im sure that we're going to be together for a very very long time. <3 xoxox
I get to see Kay in like 3 weeks.. not even!!!!
I FUCKING MISS HER SO MUCH!
Love you babygurl!! *smooch*
I have so much more to say but im so tired and im starving so ill put more in later..
xoxox Lyss
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[22 Mar 2005|10:14pm] |
so about a month ago, I met this kid Neil. Hes beautiful! the only thing is, is he has red hair. Its so cute on him though. I never thought that id be attracted to someone with his color hair but it fits him perfectly. He's from East Boston so hes a pretty tough kid, He knows like all my friends downtown and he gets along with most of them which is a plus!
Anyway, he comes in to my work with Chris Evers (boston to some) about a month or two ago. That night I completely fell in love with him. He has PIERCING blue eyes (Like Ali J's) and tons of freckles like my Kay Diddy. Hes sooo freakin hott tho!!! He called me the other night, last week sometime, Just to talk. We talked for like 10 mins then He was like "sweetie, I dont mean to be rude but im gonna fall asleep" so I let him go and the next day he suprised me at work with lunch. He is the most polite person you will EVER meet. im not even kidding. The way he talks to his mom makes me sooo frickin sad cuz me and my mom arent even half as close as them two are.
That night, the second time he came into work to see me, was a really really bad night for both of us. We were both trully upset and I was already crying by the time Neil came in. I went outside with him so he could smoke his cigg and I started bawling my eyes out... right infront of this kid that i hardly even know!! I had my face in my hands crying, He WRAPS his arms around me and holds onto me until I stopped.
He smells SOO FUCKING good. (( Ever Meet Someone Who Smells So Fucking Good That Everytime Youre Around Him You Just Wanna Stand There With Your Face In his Chest, Smelling Him haha ?? Haha ))
He left about three hours after staying there talking to me about sooo much stuff, which was seriously the best talk ive ever had with anyone.. let alone with a guy!
He called me last night. He was so upset that I knew right away something was wrong.. I donno if it was the fact that it was 12:30 in the MORNING or the fact that his voice was so shaky. but anyway, he had just gotten into a fight and needed to talk to me so that he would calm down ( his words, not mine ) We ended up talking for about an hour and a half then he hung up the phone, got in the car and drove here. We sat outside on the steps (no boys allowed in the house) and talked. It was AMAZING!
Tonight, he came into my work. I wanted to DIE! he takes my fucking breath away everytime i see him!!
Hes prolly like 6'3 and hes built, hes so damn hott haha. but back to the point of this story. He got to my work at 4, He WALKED from Salisbury just to see me! he stayed downtown for FIVE fucking hours until i got out. After I got out of work, I went outside to meet up with him ( he sat up against the window the whole time) so I walk out there and he gives me a huge hug. One of those hugs where you feel like if you let go that your body will fall apart. He gives the BEST hugs and he smells SOOOOO GOOD!! AHHH!! AND THEN!! HE KISSED ME!! EEEEEK!! BEST FUCKING KISS EVER!! (( I thought Chris was good.. damn was a FUCKING WRONG!! ))
ok well we went to Pizza Factory to hang out in there. I tell ya this kid knows everyone. But we sat in there and while I was taking a sip of my soda, I fucking chocked!! WHAT A FUCKING RETARD! I sprilt soda all over me and I was gonna cry, He looked at me and got up wicked quick to get me a napkin hahhaha omfg soo embarassing!! but anyway hes like baby im not gonna laugh at you like Mark and John would (these two fags that make fun of me all the time) and im like promise? and hes like baby dont even worry about it (( omg I can still smell him.. AHHHH)) anyway, he didnt even care at all and he made me feel alright about it haha. well i still ran over to Richdales to get a sweatshirt from Rick, The bald guy everyone hates whom Im pretty chill with. I walk back into the pizza place and hes liek DAMN BABY and I go whaaaat?? ( I had on my low black shirt with a zip up on and for some reason he was fucking loving it hahah
we were kissing and it was the fucking cutest thing ever! HE ASKED ME OUT!! eeeeeep!! hes soooo fucking hott and hes so sweet and amazing!!
I know im gonna fall in love with him <3
xoxoxox
Im tired and he just called me eeeeek!!
Out, Lyssa
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HOLY SHIT DUDE!! NEVER EVER DRINK A CUP OF COKE, 4 RED BULL, THEN DOWN A THINK OF MOUNTAIN DEW!! OMFG!
wow seriously tho hahaha im so high off of that shit!!
EEEPPP!
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My friend SPOILED me last night.
He bought me four new shirts and two new sweatshirts.
I <3 Boys !!
xoxoxox
My moms gone for the week! She went to Florida with Dave to look at houses down there. I guess we're buying a beach house which is pretty sweet :o)
Well im off to God knows what
stay cool, stay in school (haha I love the nurse)
*Lyss
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[12 Mar 2005|09:16pm] |
Shit's been so tough lately. School sucks, work sucks and friends deff suck.
I miss Kayleigh. I cant wait to go down and see her. fuck I seriously miss that chick!
Today was pretty good. Went to Olive Garden. Then work.
Driving on the high way was effin nuts. SEVEN car pile up. scariest thing ive ever witnessed!!
Alright Ive gotta tell you about the best part of my night.
There's this guy named Jay who comes into my work almost every night just to see me.
Hes soo sweet and hes adorable. except theres a downside.. Hes 24. eek I know hes too old but I cant help how I feel. He makes me laugh soo much and I feel like such a little girl around him haha.. well actually i guess i am a little girl compared to him.. woops.
well anyways back to my story, he came in tonight. He walks in and hes like "hey shortie, hows my girl?" I was just like "heyyy" cuz you know how I act like an effin tard when im nervous. so we were talking and I was making him his favorite iced latee (mocha swirl with whipped cream on it, I always draw hearts on it for him hehehe) and hes like "So when are you gonna be 17?" and I was like "In April".. he got this wicked big smile on his face and winked at me then hes like "Reallllyyy?" I was like "Yupp" hes like "mind if I take you out for your birthday?" I just giggled and hes like " I hope im not being to forward" so I say "not at all" then hes like "heres my number, we can at least talk til your 17 right?" I was like "yeah of course" haha.. then hes like "so you want me to take you out soon?" haha and i go "Hell yeah" hahaha..
daaamn hes so hott and I LOVE his cars .. all 5 of them haha.
well im gonna go take a shower then go to sleep cuz i feel like complete shit.
oh yeah and I talked shit over with Keera and we're cool now, which takes a load off of my hands haha
Will + Keera = awwww :o)
I work tomorrow from 7 til 3 so stop in a say hi! <3 xoxox
Good night!!
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okayyyy well i havent updated in a while so lets start with this weekend
Friday I worked
Saturday... ya thats right I worked
Sunday I fucking worked again.. well at least I got to hang out with kels for a while. we went to the brown school where all the Silva boys and Kevin were at, so I got to meet Josh. Hes adorable. Him and Kelsey make me miss having a boy that I can kiss and hug whenever I want. (sad)
Monday - Went to school which was alright. Then I came home and cleaned my room for a while. Then I made the mistake of going through my memory boxes. I have 5 boxes filled with things from places ive been and people ive been with. Just little things like the tag from the first shirt that I picked out for Lloyd which was also the night that I stayed at his house for the night, for the first time.
To clear my head I came online to just talk to people and what a mistake that was too.
My friend started talking to me about something. Something that I regret doing and cant take back. something that bothers me so much that I cry almost every single night since it happened.
I totally lost it. I was bawling my eyes out right infront of my sister and I HAD to leave. I hate crying in front of people.
I was crying my heart out so William came and picked me up. He made me feel a lot better about the whole thing. We went back to his house and talked for a bit while he wrote a paper for school. His sister made me the CUTEST blankie in the whole world. I LOVE it. Shes been working on it forever! Its sooo comfy to snuggle with. THANKS SUSAN! Then when Will was done with his paper we drove around for a while and talked about so much stuff. He deff is the best shoulder to cry on. Then he brought me home cuz he was going to go meet up with his girlfriend.
So after I got home I layed on the couch, snuggling with my new Nun-night (blankie) and just cried.
I tried to stop but I couldnt. My mom came home so I went to my room so she couldnt see me crying and I fell asleep around 4:30 am ish.
I went to school late cuz I woke up to the sound of *The Reason* playing on my radio and had another fucking loser break down. Today would have been one year....
wow this is a fucking boo fest if I ever heard one!
Anyway.. I got to school around 10:30. Just in time for History with Kelsey. I thought that seeing her and just being aruond ppl would make me feel better, but it didnt. I sat in history, the whole block, just in a total daze. I have no idea what we were even talking about or anything.
oh yeah and Lloyds in my class too ...
School ended and my JILLY MARIEEEE picked me up and brought me to work. We went for pizza first though. <3
work was work and it sucked as usual
WE BETTER HAVE AN EFFIN SNOW DAY TOMORROW!
well my friend Mark just called me so im gonna go...
Good Night
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I Love You!!
XoxoxoxoxoX
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It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts, in my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now
It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts, in my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me
I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time, then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this
Why does he always come back right as soon as im getting over him? Its like he can feel me slipping away. I cant take this anymore so Im not even going to be friends with him. I cant be. My heart is fucking bleeding cuz of him. I need to just stay away from the kid...
ANYWAY.. on to more important things. Last night I went to Law School with David. OMG I fucking loved it! It was so awesome and sooo many cute young lawyers.. Yummm!
Me and David hung out like all day yesterday. I drove his ass around cuz he hates to drive. I didnt get home til 11:30 and I passed out in the shower haha I woke up and was like oh god haha.
My jilly beany has a date tonight! im soo excited for her! she called me this morning to see if I wanted a ride to school but obviously I didnt need one cuz I didnt go. But we talked on the phone for 10 mins about how much we miss eachother. We usta be together every morning before school and then after school we would go to the prep look at hott guys then go over to the mall. now im lucky if i see her on my way to class. I wish her mom would realize that shes going tobe 18 soon and she cant keep telling her who she can and cant hang out with.. boo!
well i think im going to go start getting ready for work tonight. 3-9 im tired as fuck and i feel like shit. theres not way in hell im gonna make it til 9!!
Blah.. im dredding this.
I love you Jill!! Good Luck on your date tonight!! Mmmmwuah! xoxox
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1) First Grade Teacher: Mrs. Willy
2) Last thing you said: "Lynds find me a guy whos can actually get me off"
3) Last song you sang: How Could You by Mario
4) Last person you hugged: Lloyd
5) Last thing you laughed at: a convo with me and kate
6) Last time you said 'I love you': the 28th
7) Last time you cried: five mins ago
8) What's in your CD player: Kelly Clarkson.. (DONT LAUGH!!) :oP
9) What color socks are you wearing: My feet are naked = no socks
10) What's under your bed: nothing...
11) What time did you wake up today: arouns 10ish
12) Current taste: Cheerios .. yummm
13) Current hair: messy bun
14) Current clothes: Pink wife beater, and my pj shorts from A&E
15) Current annoyance: Lloyd
16) Current longing: to find a guy who'll treat me right
17) Current desktop picture: a pic of this hott model that my sis put on it.
18) Current worry: am i gonna die alone?
19) Current hate: uhm.. i think its pretty damn obvious
20) Story behind your LJ username: hahaha oh man. okay the first night that I spent the night at my bestfriend Kayleigh's house, we were sitting on her pourch and it was prolly like 2 in the am so we were hyper as hell and we were eating m&m's and being wicked loud, then all of a sudden we look at the table and theres a citronella candle sitting there and its just been our thing ever since. we tried getting high from the candle. haha (shut up we were like 12)
21) Current favorite article of clothing: my new pink shirt
22) Favorite physical feature of the opposite sex: Lips, eyes and arms
22a) Favorite physical feature of the same sex: eyes .. Ali J's eyes..
23) Last CD that you bought: Kelly Clarkson (seriously, stop laughing)
24) Favorite place to be: whereever kay is.
25) Least favorite place: here
26) Time you wake up in the morning: usually around 6 am ish
27) If you could play an instrument, what would it be: I play the gay flute and piano so if i could play a new one it would be the guitar or the drums.
28) Favorite color: Pink & Orange
29) Do you believe in an afterlife: Yupp
30) how tall are you: 5'7 ish .. i think?
31) Current favorite word/saying: Idonno?
32) Favorite book: Good In Bed
33) Favorite season: summer
34) One person from your past you wish you could go back and talk to: Daddy Al
35) Favorite day: Friday Night
36) Where do you want to go to college: UNH, or somewhere in Cali, Florida or NY
37) What is your career going to be like: lawyer or nurse or something like that.
39) What kind of car will you have: a nice beamer or mercedes
40) Type a line you remember from any book: One Fish, Two Fish, Red Fish, Blue Fish.
41) A random lyric: "Its like i cant breathe without you in or haunting me"
42) Identify some things surrounding your computer: My Printer, my cell phone, Cheerios, Ink for my printer.. thats about it
Staying home sick sucks haha
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[02 Mar 2005|10:57am] |
UGHHH WHY THE FUCK DID I GO BACK TO HIM!!!??
My heart is now completely shattered ... not just broken.
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[02 Mar 2005|10:33am] |
Im home today sick...
Im SO effin glad that I didnt go. I just got an email from Lloyd and If I read it in school I wouldnt have been able to even look at him.
I love how he always breaks my heart.
I knew that when I moved on I should have just kept going.. not back track and sleep with him.
Fucker
Boys are dumb.
All I want is someone who'll treat me better than HIM, they wouldnt have much to live up to.. trust me.
hes gotta have dreams, passions and plans for his life.
like whats he like to do after school? does he play a sport or hang with friends or does he just go home and sit on his ass? (once in a whiles okay but not everyday)
Hes gotta have a car. A relationship where our parents or friends have to cart our asses everywhere would piss me off. and then hes gotta have friends. If he doesnt have friends than hes a loser and i will not date a loser hahaha. and his friends have to be nice.
one last thing. Hes gotta be one that doesnt go to bed at effin 8 pm. hes gotta wanna stay up late with me.
That pisses me the eff off when he brings you home on a FRIDAY NIGHT at effin 7:30 cuz hes tired and wants to go to bed. (yeah ive experienced ppl like that too.. GAY)
okay well now you know what my dream guy is,
Lets just see how long it takes a guy to even have ONE quality about them....
xoxox
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[28 Feb 2005|08:40pm] |
Oh and i don’t know
I don’t know what he's after
But he's so beautiful
Such a beautiful disaster I miss him so much.
And if I could hold on
Through the tears and the laughter
Would it be beautiful?
Or just a beautiful disaster
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[28 Feb 2005|01:00pm] |
Love :: A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.
The EMOTION of sex and romance... love is an emotion -
its like being sad or happy.
So how do you really tell when youre truely IN love ??
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[27 Feb 2005|08:02pm] |
For some reason lately ive been such an effin teany bopper or w.e courtney calls em haha
I LOVE kelly clarkson.. her new CD is my life in a nutshell.. I would give anything for her voice too.
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Thats called Behind These Hazel Eyes. Its so cute!!
You have to get her new CD its the best CD and if you need a good cry over a lost love, then this is deff for you hahah i sound like an effin sales person
anyway im going to bed
P.S I talked to S.B!! EEEKKKK!! hes so adorable!! haha
G'night , im out <3
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